Patsy’s Dad has Dementia

Not that it’s a big secret.
If they ever start selling cue cards with “TMI” in huge letters at Target you’ll know it was because of me.
I tell people all the time
Why?
Because I don’t think having an elderly parent with dementia is anything to be ashamed of and
I don’t want to be alone with this truth

He was supposed to die in his sleep surrounded by power tools and leafy green vegetables in his right wing bunker in the hills

Now it’s a one day at a time deal

I never wanted to be this responsible for another human being
Especially one who has hurt me so much over the years

Is it punk rock to throw the hurt aside and face down someone’s death with them?

You fucking bet it is.

Solstice 2006

There is no redemption / The redemption is complete

There is no healing / There is endless healing

There is only pain / There is joy

Darkness engulfs me / I walk into light

I am completely alone and exposed /
I am loved and surrounded by warmth

I bang my head into walls / I rest in soft dreams

Everything hurts / The very air I breathe heals